(Source: jinhyunjin-anon)
I can be a detective. But i know i can’t be one because i am a bad guy. it wouldn’t make sense for a bad guy, like me, catching other bad guys. as i sit here, woke up from a dream(more of a nightmare), i thought about my past. i was a shy guy, who pretend to be more than i am. I know i never bullied anyone, but that incident made it seem like i was the ring leader of it all. i never meant to do it, but the story goes like this….the truth is that i was just there, but being just me, i became the leader of it. how? well, the things i said made me become the leader of it. i ruined his high school life and i think his college career too. He was a smart kid, but super annoying. I acted as his friend but i didn’t want my friends to “bully” him cause they didnt like him, but i never didn’t anything to stop them from doing it, even though i never “bullied/teased” him. I never wanted this to happen, but it did and i can’t change the past. that was when i basically killed him mentally. He annoyed the crap out of one my friends’ friend and got punched. That was the fire starter. Shit got real, there was around 7-10 people involved in this incident. But the problem was this one girl. well, lets back this up a little, my friends’ friend created a “hate group” and we all joined. me wanted to be cool joined the group. it was an online group thing. we said stuff on there, that we couldn’t take back, and i said stuff on there that got me the “leader role”. i regret it. but now back to the story. that one girl was the problem, none of us were friends with him online, but she was. she joined the group after(lets call him john) john got punched by my friends’ friend. and he saw online that she join a group about him. we got called in to the office and stuff. got lectured, got the police almost involve, almost got friendship torn apart. once i got home i got the shit beaten outta me. i told them the truth but there was evidence of me being the “leader”, so anything i said didn’t go through to them. Luckily i was “forced” to moved to another state. i wanted to leave everything behind and start new. i shaved my head tried to act new but that was all fake. because the real me is a bad guy. the more cop movies i watch the more i think about this incident. the more i want to be in the force the more i think of this even more. is it fate for me not to be a detective/cop? this might come and catch up to me cause what goes around comes around. this is a reason why i do good deeds to make sure karma changes her mind, but im sure she has her mind set. even though, karma is on my ass, i will still become a detective/cop. that is my dream, it might be ruin by this incident cause in my “nightmare” the case was about bullying. My pal/partner “NikkiX” was on the case with me. i saw “john” in my dream, because the case was related to him somehow. when i asked him if he knew anything, he told me, why is a guy like me(the bad guy) trying to catch others like me(bad guys). what he said to me, broke me down and i lost all motivation. but my partner, NikkiX told me to not give up and be strong on this case(i think this came from his blog/tumblr the other night i was reading, it was about being motivated and such). I told him not to worry about it cause it as nothing to do with him, but he keep on telling me that he worries cause we’re partners, and partners got each others back. all the clues we got eventually lead us to “john”. he wanted my life to be miserable for what i had done. then i woke up. shit scared me cause some of my closest friends died.
After losing of my harddrive I decided to re-write the album, this cd isn’t just about my life
but listening to The Wonder Years, The Early November as well as other rappers such as Dumbfoundead
Childish Gambino, and D-Pryde. After the release of “It’s Beautiful After The End” which was recorded
…
i’ll work as hard.
- When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside
- When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely
- When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret
- When a person can’t cry, that person is weak
- When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension
- When a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted
- When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you
(Source: shyieesolove)
My favorite chinese cop actor Donnie Yen and my favorite K-actress Shin Min Ah #donnieyen #shinminah #actor #actress (Taken with instagram)
I’ve been starving… I crave for bbq meat, but theres none. Or a bbq burger sounds good right now. :(
